Carbs are my favourite; did you know? This isn't only going to be pictures of food, and it's over the course of a month so give me a break (it's still not good 🤫 I know).

What I'm saying is it's another photo dump post.

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I bought some new trainers but, for the first time in my life, I'm going to wait until drier weather to wear them. Like a grown-up.

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I feel like I completely missed blossom season this year. I wish I'd caught this magnolia in full swing.

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The cat was fluffy.

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Mac & Cheese "fries" at Caccia and Tails, with their Marmite mayonnaise which shouldn't work but does.

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Cheese, tomato and butter foccacia at Caccia and Tails. Like a salty, reheated pizza. Recommend++

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We ate at Caccia and Tails in Lewes. Been there a couple of times now and I love it. Weird concept for a place but I am very into their food.

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A lovely Aston that I hadn't heard of before. The driver obviously got a kick out of my interest in it, as he booted it away from the traffic lights and gave me a bit of motion blur.

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One of the many workshop dogs at Fenture in Lewes. I like fluffies.

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A burger that I assembled. I love burgers.

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I got a new watch. It's very nice, but Apple's estimate of my quality of sleep is significantly more optimistic than my own.

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I went to Takedown Festival at Portsmouth Guildhall. Lots of good bands played but the sound was pretty dreadful for the most part. Palm Reader are always so good though.

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My mum's dog Stephy is so funny. I miss my dog.

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Tabitha loves the cat. The cat is largely projecting an air of nonplussedness.

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This kid is not fearless, but she will always have a bash at overcoming fear, and I hope she carries that with her her whole life.

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We had curry. When I was younger I used to joke that food would kill me. As I get older, it gets less funny.

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We got Switch Sports. It's pretty good (although, amusingly, I don't like the badminton). It made Tabitha say my favourite thing recently: "I practiced all day and I still couldn't beat you!". We can't have many years of that left so I'm making the most of it.

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Friday thinks she's people.

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Tabitha and I went for a walk whilst Charlotte visited Circular Space. There seems to be a reasonable amount of good walking in Shoreham.

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An RC race-track. I'm always so happy to discover things like this.

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A cool sign by the footbridge in Shoreham. The other side was also cool but I couldn't get the angle I wanted.

I got an annoying idea in my head the other day, and I've been having a hard time shaking it. I've been trying to make new habits and do new(ish) things and not really improving, and having this feeling that I suck at everything I try. I realise that on a global scale, most people suck at most things they do, but I try to set my goals realistically and still end up feeling inadequate by my own meagre standards.

I know it's not realistic to improve at the guitar if you can't find time to practice. I know I won't be able to draw unless I actually, y'know, pick up a pen and do some drawing. I do know this, and that's why I suppose I'm complaining about a feeling rather than my own lack of ability to improve.

The things I do do regularly, I improve at. I've been steadily improving at badminton since we stopped caring about COVID as a species. I've been happy with my photos and writing. I've been happy with the quality of my work. I feel like I'm doing better as a husband and dad at the moment (though the latter gets trickier the more effort you put in. Video games have not prepared me for that difficulty curve!).

I can just never let myself be happy with what I am getting right. Unless all my plates are spinning full speed and with perfect balance, I can't congratulate myself for the ones that are. I have to focus on the ones that I keep letting fall, and then beat myself up for it. Thanks for that, brain. I appreciate that you're always trying to push me forward, I guess. Would be nice to feel happy and satisfied occasionally, though (I imagine).

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