15. More badminton, and we're not even close to over

Day 2 (day 1 for me) of my BE level 2 course. Such a long day and I am terrible at group work like this. I was bad at it in school and I'm bad at it now. I talk when I should shut up and I follow when I should challenge. My confidence flows in completely the wrong way and I absolutely hate it. I can see it happening in real time and still I can't change it. I'm either too confident to silence myself or too shy to push outside myself.

Still I think the training is effective. I am happy with how my understanding is improving, and the tools they give you for breaking the game down, analysing it, and putting it back together are good. I watch a lot of badminton technique and tactics on YouTube for my own game, so will look forward to revisiting some of that with a more analytical eye to see if things could improve my coaching as well.